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I hate it here so much. New York sucks ass. I can't be friends with who i want to be.. and then when I'm finally happy with the friends that I actually have... it's not good enough. I miss Brian and Aarron too much. And everyone else. But I just wanna come home RIGHT NOW! Too much drama go's on here.. and you all think it's bad in Bothell? Yea Right. This town is 1 sq mile every way. Wayyyyy too small! I hate it.

Some one rescue me... PLEASE!

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I hate this I hate this I hate this!!!!!

So I'm goin with Tony still.. but I don't know what's gonna happen with that whole thing... hmmm... whatever. I can't stand some of the people that I left behind. You think some people are your friends and then the next thing you know they basically forget all about you and your feelings and go spill the beans... right?! That's fucked up and I give up officially. I have no reason to keep in touch with some of you.. the rest.. Keep expecting calls. Maybe I should just move on with my life though. I mean.. I'll be coming back... you just won't be apart of the "joy"... Some of you know what I'm talking about.. Others... oh well.

Anyways.. School started today and I hate it. Now I understand why I never went. I'm gonna graduate though.. if it kills me. I'm thinkin that when I'm 18..... November 26,2007.... I'm gonna be there. I'll graduate there if I have to. But I have to see adrienn and some other people.. I always get yelled at for fogetting people's names.. so I'm not gonna name them. But you know who you are if I do miss you.

Well that's really all there is to tell for now... Boys suck... Life should be shorter... and pain is irrelavent..

wow I must be fucked in the head... what have they done to me out here?!?!?!?!

Brian and Aarron... I love you guys and miss you bunches!

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I have a xanga...

www.xanga.com/kaylathecool

I go out with this boy Tony. It's only been like a week and he's gotten me roses, other flowers, a teddy bear, and heart shaped candy.... and he took me to the movies at the mall. Sounds perfect... right?... hmmm.. Not really.

Pics are being sent out today if it's the last thing I do.

Heart:Arrow

Much love

[	mood	|	devious	]
[	music	|	air conditioner	]

Lalalalalalalalalalalalala.....

Obviously I have no life.... My mom's trying to say that I can't come home for my birthday...

well FUCK THAT..... it's gonna happen whether she likes it or not.... RIGHT?!

Last summer was a blast.. how come it can't be last summer?

Too many things have changed. I don't like change... for the most part.

ERICA! i miss you.

DANNI! I called you.

EVERYONE ELSE! Yea... you're all awesome in my book! and I love you all.

Peace out ninjas

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN!!!!

Miss you guys! Don't forget to give me your addresses for pictures!

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Soooo0o..

My boy and I went on a break. I am afraid to admit that I am not strong enough yet.

I jumped off of a bidge... (BRIDGE JUMPING!).. Y'all back home should try it.

The Bitches out here are Drama Queens! And I thought Washington girls were bad... They're angels!

I'm getting my New York accent back REALLY bad!

That one guy that I used to talk about to all my friends that lives out here *can't say the name*... well it's not the same. My worst fears have come true and I'm still heartbroken... though I shouldn't be. right?

I TALKED TO ADRIENN AND FELL IN LOVE WITH HER ALL OVER AGAIN! I know that soon she will be here with me and I will be able to welcome her and show her my new life.. She will be proud... I hope. But never nearly as proud as I am of her. That girl has a heart of pure gold. \

SERIOUSLY PEOPLE! IF YOU WANT ME TO WRITE YOU AND/OR SEND YOU PICTURES... YOU BETTER GIVE ME YOUR ADDRESS OR SOMETHING SO I AM ABLE TO DO THAT!

Brian- I don't know if you'll see this or not.. but last night you called me and I tried to call you back. Please call again if you can cuz I REALLY dislike this whole "not having a number to reach you at" thing... and I'M STILL WAITING FOR SOMETHING IN THE MAIL! Love you babe.

Peace

I think I can

 I think I can

  I think I can

   I think I can

HELP!

I'm scared to be alone. Someone please come out here and love me!

First off.. if no one really knows this.. I have not been asked out in I think about 7 months?

That record has now been broken. Plus, Dan and I have the same Birthday... cool huh?

Dan is my new boyfriend. He's exactly 3 years older than me with blonde hair and blue eyes. Up until last night I wanted someone else.. but he lives in Washington and most likely doesn't like me like that so... I guess I gotta move on.

I'm on my way to happiness.. but it's getting harder everyday.. I miss the old life.. I don't think I can do it.

I got to talk to erica today. It was the best part of everything. I miss her and Adrienn and Brittney and Aarron and Brian and Kevin... etc.. anyone else I forgot. I love you all and I'll be back to visit in November maybe?

I got pictures taken and will be developed tonight so if you would like me to send you some.. leave an address.

Welcome to my new life.... in NEW YORK...

Hope everything in Washington is doing okay without me.

Leave me a comment if you wanna keep in touch.... not sure who really wants to... so yea.

Brian.. if you see this... hi.Miss ya man.

My house number here is 518-664-8030

Peace out

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[	music	|	radio. usher. confessions part 2.	]

I was just teasing!!!! Where'd you go?

.. call me....?

[	mood	|	drained	]
[	music	|	Napster	]

I'm moving to Mechanicville, New York on July 12th.

Exactly 3 months late...

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[	music	|	When I go down	]

Um.. what to say...

Well I've been doing great for the most part. I'm still really excited to move. Meeting new people has definately been overdue.

Megan's visiting! Her, Bacon, and Sammy came up and hung out with me for a while. Made my day.

You make friends and you lose them I guess.... oh well. Life goes on.

Tonight should be good. I'm a little excited.

I miss some people.. others.. not so much.

I LOVE MY DAD. I called him for father's day and he gave me so much strength. That had to be the best conversation I've ever had with him... I wanted to cry.. and not a lot of people make me wanna do that lately.

I actually feel confertable in a swim suit in public now. New York.. Get ready for this! lol.

Hope y'all are having a good summer so far. I can't wait to go back to school! woohoo!

Peace out

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[	music	|	Ying Yang twins: wait... dirty	]

You're the cutest thing
That I ever did see
I really love your peaches
I want to shake your tree
Lovey-dovey, dovey-lovey, dovey all the time
Ooo-eee baby, I'm gonna show you a good time babe

Cause I'm a picker
I'm a grinner
I'm a lover
And I'm a sinner
I play the music in the sun

I'm a joker
I'm a smoker
I'm a midnight toker
I sure don't want to hurt no one

TOP NEWS: I should be gone by.. hmm.. I guess mid July. Soon.. I know. But I should've went in April. So this is of course WAYYYYY overdue. I'm so excited. I miss Cera, Jessica, Julia, Jamie, Chris, and Mike. If I'm forgetting anyone. I'm sorry and I miss you too.

Don't get me wrong people. I would love to stay here with you all and watch everyone graduate.. but I gotta do a little growing up myself. I don't mean to put anyone through this again.. but on the other hand I haven't really hung out with any of you since I stayed.... hm.

WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITHOUT ADRIENN?!?!?!? I've been with her for so long. It's weird even not being with her right now! I'm going to get the money for her, JOHN!!!!, and Nate to come see me. Erica said she'll pay for herself. HAH. Today.. I couldn't figure out what was wrong for the life of me.. and then when I was watching Adrienn get ready... I felt it. THE BIG BREAKDOWN. I tried to hide in the laundry room.. (I'm such a baby lol).. she found me of course. PSH. I realized how much I'm gonna miss her.

This time.. she really made me better. She told me that it's the best thing. We're all getting the help that we need and in the end everything will all work out. So to you Adrienn I wanna say thank you, I truely do love you, and your white ass better be waitin by that phone right when you get home. SERIOUSLY! lol. BFF.. like ALL the posters of us say! Maybe we'll even end up with a room for US! like my back one.

Peace out! HOMMMMIIIES

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[	music	|	slow down Bobby Valentino.. on a mix	]

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

Beyonce: Dangerously in love

Good song. Yea.

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[	music	|	limewire	]

*You can't please anyone else until you are pleased yourself*
Those are the words that I need to live by now.

APPARENTLY THIS IS THE ONLY WAY YOU FIND OUT THINGS ABOUT ME.. INSTEAD OF ACTUALLY TALKING TO ME. SO I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY THIS IS FOR CLOSURE ONLY. MY JOURNAL. MY WORDS. IF YOU THINK IT'S STUPID THEN DON'T READ IT. YOU'RE OPINION DOES NOT MATTER. I'M DEFINATELY OVER YOU BY NOW. I HAVE A FEELING A LOT IS GONNA CHANGE THIS YEAR. SCORE. SO READ IF YOU WANT:

I'm sorry I made mistakes that I can't take back.
I'm sorry for not being strong.
I'm sorry for getting "drugged up" and for not waiting.
I'm sorry I had to take a test.. *whew*
I'm sorry I couldn't make you realize how much I loved you.
I'm sorry that you can't take 10 minutes out of the rest of your life for me.
I'm sorry I had to have my best friend save my life by clueing my mom into what I was doing.
I'm sorry you moved on.
I'm sorry you have no clue what is about to happen.
I'm sorry that I just can't possibaly live up to your expectations.
I'm sorry that you're the reason...
I'm sorry I let you infect my brain with lies.
I'm sorry I fell for you for the last time.
I'm sorry I listend to my brain when my heart was saying not to trust you again.
I'm sorry to say that I knew you would do this again.
I'm sorry you're a coward and can't take responsabilty for what you put me through.
I'm sorry I believed you.
I'm sorry I ever dreamed about you.
I'm sorry I ever talked to you.
I'm sorry I ever told you I love you.. Love doesn't exist.

I hope you see this and realize what you're missing out on. If not.. oh well.
I'm a great girl and I will find someone that I feel comfertable with.. almost as confertable as I felt with you.
But I would like to thank you for curing me of my rediculous obsession with love.
You were worth it all.
You were absolutely perfect in my eyes.
The past is the past and there's no undoing what you've already done.
Not much else to say except good luck.. have fun..
and see ya round.